ALONG ,
i hate my big sis . I SERIOUSLY HATE HER ! =.= dia sgt sgt sgt SGT , annoying and sorry to say , BONGKAK ! aku tau la aku ni adik dia , but hey , i have feelings too duh ? STUPID HUH ALONG ? =.= adik dah ckp byk kali dah , adik malassssssss nak gaduh ! but why ? along suka cari pasal sgt dgn adik ? THAT'S STUPID ! and whyyy , a sister must gaduh with her lil' sister ? HUH ? WHY ? normal ? NO . COOL ? NO ! and kenapa i have to do all thos stuff you asked me to do ? YOU'RE A STUPID BITCH , AND I HATE YOU ! YOU'RE RUINING MY LIFE BIG SIS ! =.=
NEXT ,
ibu , imma sorry for this . but i can't stand it anymore . i hate when you always menangkan along . if i tell you this , believe me , you'll get mad and all adik-nape-ckp-cm-ni , oh PH-LEASE . sounds rude ? yeah , i AM being rude . i know this is wrong , but i REALLY can't stand it anymore . ibu , nape ibu ckp , i don't have sense of fashion ? i KNOW fashion . but i DON'T CARE about them . hey , it hurts you know , deep inside . i just don't have the heart to tell you this , coz , you'll cry and make me feel miserable . i love you , but it hurts , when your own mum calls you BIG FOOT . haha , i know i have g=big feet , but c'mon , i have feelings too . and you comparing me with along , i DON'T like that . i want you to give me support , not COMPARING . i want you to caress me when i'm crying , not saying i'm too big for this . i know i have many weaknesses , but i depend on you to help me through all of this . so please .
AYAH ,
i love you very much . i hate it when ayah kene perli dgn ibu and along . i don't like it . but , i'm too scared to say anything . i'm sorry . i love both , along and ibu , but it hurts when my OWN big sis wants to fight me everytime i'm home , and ibu critics me everytime when i'm home too . but sometimes , they just go overboard . i don't mean anything rude . but this is my 'luahan hati' . i hate being the 'smallest' among the family . when ibu said , " adik kan dah besar , nape nangis ? " . of couse i cried , coz my OWN lil' sister , said , imma BIG FOOT . cuba ayah kene , tak sakit hati ? sakit kan ? and i've been undergoing this for too long. i burst in tears that day coz i sakit hatiii , sgt sgt . i've always been the most NOT fashionable . the heck , i know i'm not fashionable . so what ? i don't care what others think , but when you say " klau ibu kasik adik baju ape2 , mesti adik pakai kan ? " ok , tht's a bit over limit i think ? tak de la adik tak tau fashion smpai mcm tu kot . takkan la ibu kasik adik plastik sampah , and think , im gonna wear it ? =.= it hurts , SERIOUSLY , it hurts .
GIRL ,
i love you dik . but when you say such mean things , hurts ya know ? i know you're a lil' kid or whatever . but you KNOW , that i don't like people calling me BIG FOOT aite ? =.= so why did you call me that ? ha dik ? aku panggil kau gemok , tau pon tak suke , nangis . ibu plak ckp , " laaaa , dye kan budak kecik , nape adik nangis plak ?" hey , big people can't cry huh ?? mcm tuh ? eh eh ? habis tu ? cuba ade org kutuk bnde yg you know , you can't change them even if you want too , tak sakit hati ? hah ? if it been going for like 2 years , tak rasa nk meletup ? hah ? tak ? STUPID =.=
BOY ,
I love you boy . thanks for always being there . the ONLY person in this family that knows how i feel . thanks for everything.
in conclusion , i really love all of you , but , it hurts . real bad . so , i have to write this. i'm sorry , if any of you guys , read this . it's a bit rude , but now you know my feelings . it's all out , and i'm sorry if i don't layan you guys anymore after this , coz i'm sick of being critic by , and being the defenseless one .
so , thanks for whoever read this . and sorry if i hurt anyone's feeling .
with lots of love ,
Sereena
