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| i'll never forget this :) thanks ♥ |
hey people of the earth :) it's been a long time huh? well, how are you guys doing? if you ask me, i'm fine as i can be ^^ guess what? it's already end of the year. school's out, and i will become a form 5 student. huh, time flies. the thing is, this year had touched my heart, my soul and my past :) this year had helped me in finding who i really am, who i should trust, who i should cherish and love and also, who's my enemy.
who i really am?
that's a big question. i haven't discovered yet who i really am thoroughly because i've only lived for what? 16 years? :) well, one thing that i become aware off is that i'm melancholic and also phlegmatic. i don't decide on my own, actually, CAN'T decide on my own. but hey, i'm going to fix that :) so, yeah, i got to know myself better this year. and also, i finally realised that, if you have low self-esteem, don't rely on everyone around you to give you support all the time -.- i mean come on, everyone have problems right? so, you yourself need to support YOU.
who i should trust?
haha :) this question gave me a lot of headache in finding the 'who' part. of course, first and foremost, Allah :) Allah will never leave you, like EVER. remember that. in finding success in life, you need to trust Allah first because He is the Almighty that gives you what you want. second, your family ;) they will be there through your ups and down. no matter how bad your attitude is, how stubborn and selfish you can be, and when you think you're always right, and no one likes you for that, only your family can accept you :) remember that. and lastly, your friends. well, this part gave me the headache -.- seriously. there are many types of friends out there, the one you need to back away, the one you need to pay attention too and the one that have the heart to back-stab you. choose your friends wisely, cause, they make you :)
who should i cherish and love?
Allah. my family. my friends. and everyone that loves me for me. there was this one time when i think i can't be cherish by anyone, thinking that if i make everyone happy, i can never be abandoned. sometimes, this type of attitude can cause harm to yourself. it means you don't love yourself enough. if that's the case how can you love others? am i right? :) so, some of my friends make me realise that, pleasing others can only be done if you have pleased yourself.
my enemy?
neh. i just made that up :) holding grudges against others is really a tiring thing to do. if you are one of those who hold grudges to everyone that hurt you, you'll be more hurt. trust me. hating people is not worth it. but, cherishing people is a 100 times better ;) you get the benefit of a happy heart and of course your cherish one will feel the same.
so, this year, 2012, had teach me a big lesson in life. being there for others, the responsibility of a leader and other things. thanks 2012, for giving me experience for my journey through life. and also, i will forever miss this year and of course never forget all the moments that had made me jump for joy and cried of sadness.
goodbye 2012 ♥
